So it’s been over 2 weeks since I touched a drop.. and I’m truly so so proud of myself. I have read The Naked Mind and this has been a great help!- thank you to those bloggers who suggested this! However, there is one thing that still keeps plaguing me.. I’m terrified of how things ‘out there in the world’ are going to play out!
You see, I’ve been able to keep myself secluded for the last 2 weeks, as I am a full time distance study student completing my degree at home. When I am here I am 100% gung-ho that I can do this! I’ve got this alcohol thing beat.. and yet, every time I do leave the house, even for a short time- I change my mind.. “oh nah, I’ll be alright, I’ll just keep drinking in moderation” (yeah right)- how could I possibly conceive of interacting and having fun without my crutch??.. suddenly the idea becomes ridiculous!!
I’ve spoken about this in my last blog, and had some helpful tips, but when booze & social things have gone together in your life for as long as you can remember, it seems like a completely unachievable thing to expect things to be ‘easy’ without it. HOWEVER.. I may have just unwittingly provided myself with the solution!! I’ve just signed up for a 14 week online program that is designed to maximise my health and fitness.. I’m so excited about it, and already diving in eagerly- and suddenly it occurred to me- I can not drink alcohol for that 14 weeks, because it’s not healthy- it doesn’t fit in to this plan!
What I realise I have done by making this commitment a part of the program is 2 things: First, I will have 14 weeks to begin to experience life without alcohol in ALL situations- I am travelling overseas in a couple of weeks- this used to be a sure ‘opportunity’ for drinking- that’s what waiting at airports is all about right?? 🙂 But I can’t drink because I’m committed to the program- and Second, I can’t drink because I’m committed to the program!- a perfect line to use with people in my life who will be expecting me to be ‘fun Ange’.. always with the drink in my hand.. I figure by the end of the 14 weeks, people will be used to me not drinking, and will therefore stop asking, and once the time is up I can say that I have decided to continue not drinking because, well, I just liked it better!!
So my conclusion today is that I am a Genius!! You may be thinking “yeah but you could always just choose to ignore your commitment”, well, yes I could- but that generally isn’t in my nature- I have commitment- I have 5 years of distance study under my belt and have almost earned by Bachelor’s degree completely through distance study- there’s no one here that keeps me accountable but me! When I want something, I’m committed, no doubt! Time to smash this thing!! xx